And Breathe, just Breathe...

There's this song - I heard it somewhere, the radio maybe? - and it as been running, running through my head for days. I have no clue what it's about, don't know any other words, just that it sings Breathe. I've been so distracted, busy, anxious these last weeks with Mike's surgery to my sister's wedding to hour upon hour of house hunting/negotiating to driving here and there. And I've been trying to control everything which makes me a Real Pleasure to be around. And I think what I need to do is take a moment to Breathe.

As it turns out, I feel lost - like my life has been pulled out from under me. I'm in this limbo, this holding pattern, just Waiting. Waiting to move into a new home, waiting to find a new church, waiting to raise my kid on my terms again, waiting to take care of my family. And, I totally understand that these weeks are not how my life will be, but it is so hard for me to keep that in mind. Mike keeps telling me this is Temporary - I long for his perspective. I get so jumbled up in the daily.

When I do have a quiet moment, I think of you all - my sweet MBC family. You guys are so precious - beautiful, loving pictures of Christ. And I Miss You. So much. Sooooooooooooo Much. And I am so grateful to God for dropping Mike and I in Midland because knowing you, learning from you, seeing how you do life and what it means to live what you believe has changed me. I'm such a different girl now than I was four years ago and it's because I had the priveledge of starting my walk at MBC with all of you.

I love you all so much. So, so, so, so, so much!