Can I tell you all how much I have been longing for Mom's Group? I'm in desperate need of advice, encouragement, perspective. So, I'm sending an S.O.S. hoping for words of wisdom.
Okay, so life with grandparents - can we all say Grandchild-Centered? And, unless I refuse to allow them access to Clara, I don't think it can be avoided. It's so sad, too - to see her changing, to see behaviors that are selfish and attention seeking and to feel like I am stuck in this environment. We have reinstated playpen time - in the midst of sulking and disapproval from my parents- which is helping Clara some. And I'm trying some other stuff, too, to help with this unwanted attitude she's developing. I feel so sad for Clara because the rules are getting changed, are "fluid" (i.e. inconsistent), and it seems so unfair to her. Its frustrating to look back on the last two months and realized that that time can be characterized more by child centeredness than not.
And, now, her sleeping is being affected. She's starting to cry at night - once or twice a night for the last few nights. Or, I'll just hear her up at like 4, rolling around. This is the worse she has slept Ever since she started sleeping through the night. And, I can only assume is has to do with her day. She's also not napping great. She'll wake from one of her two naps after 45 min to an hour and not go back to sleep. I wonder if it is time to drop her morning nap, but she regularly can not make it to her bed-time - losing it 30 minutes beforehand.
And food. I don't know what to feed this kiddo. I know she needs to eat more than baby food (and does, I mean she likes cereal, crackers, yogurt), but don't know what new foods to introduce to her or how much to feed her.
But, mostly, it is just so hard for me to not have control over her environment and her days. And I know I can't have complete control, blah, blah, blah. It just sucks to see her being affected. Sucks to know that I'm going to have to retrain her if I ever get my own home again. It seems so unfair to her. I'm seriously so discouraged. Man...
2 comments:
(((((Katie)))))
(That was a hug.)
I'm SOOOO sorry. You are such a great mommy. I'll write you soon and try to offer some advice. Remember, this is just a season!
Ashlee
My parents are here visiting. We often tell stories of the ridiculous things we as kids did. Truthfully, they werent perfect. I dont think any parent is. But you know what, they raised good kids, and we all love them very very much. Hang in there, she is so lucky to have such a caring mom.
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